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What a busy semester..BUSY GOING HOME!! LOL

Actually I don't really know what am I doing in this sem.

I am so blur throughout this sem.

Didn't really pay attention to most lectures and workshops.

Now, I am looking forward for the coming attachment cause after two days attachment, I'll be at home for 13days!!!!

Home sweet home I am coming!!!!!!!

Sometimes

Sometimes..

when you think you're the best

in fact

you're just a lil' better than the worst.

Sometimes..

when you think you're concerning

in fact

you're very irritating.

Sometimes..

when you pretend nothing happened

in fact

you're just making the condition worst.

Sometimes..

when you try to explain

in fact

you're just creating more misunderstand.

Sometimes..

when you do nothing

in fact

you're doing something stupid.

Huh..Nothing much u can do then. Let the time do everything for you. When it is the right time, no matter what you do, it still can be the solution. So just WAIT.

Guilty

I know I was wrong..

I was so so wrong!!

But I cant stop myself from thinking about that..

The feelings of being like or admire is so great~

that I can't deny that at certain moment my heart had betrayed you.

I'm Sorry!

I dare not tell you about this until now..

because I know myself does not deserve to be forgiven.

But I know you will hate me more if I deny it!

I am trying hard..

Fighting with myself..

Struggling..

But the more I struggle, the deeper I fall into this mistake..

That's I always wanted more and more from you..

cause the more you gave, the better I feel..

Better as in more secure.

Receiving from you is the only way that can bring me out from my mistake.

I am not here to blame you for not giving me more..

But myself of being so dependent on you.

I know I am stubborn..

Stubborn in such a way that

can make you hate me.

I'm sorry!

No matter whose fault..

You will always be the one that make the first move..

to apology.

That's what make you so special to me.

I know being pampered by you makes me worst..

But I love the way you pamper me..

Love the way you pamper me so much.

Letting you know..

how guilty I feel in these years

is the purpose of me writing this.

I never hope that you will forgive me

but I want to let you know that..

No matter how many times my heart had betrayed you..

It came back to you in the end.

I'm sorry for being such a..

Allow me to say BITCH.

I'm sorry!

I know no matter how I say,

it was still my fault..

I'm not trying to twist the fact..

And I know my apologies will not make you feel better cause..

As I always said, apologies will never heals a heart.

But I still have to say

I'm sorry!!

New update

This semester I am free to do anything I want but I am just too lazy to blog. Anyway, today I am going to write something although I have no idea what am I going to write in this post. So just ignore all my craps..LOL..Time just slipped by quickly without me knowing it! It's been six weeks since I came back to IMU. Dreaming during lectures, didn't study for PBL, didn't do any revision are what I did almost every semester . What am I suppose to do? LOL..Anyway, I just hope for pass..so I think I shouldn't make myself so stress. I am still with my principle "Play HARD, Study SMART" (ps: play comes first) LOL..

This weekend in KL was a great one. Spent most of my time with friends for outdoor activities, movies and FOODsss make this weekend tiring but wonderful. It ended just like that, in a blink of eye and tomorrow is Monday again =(

Why I have such a good mood to blog despite I haven't finish my portfolio which I have to submit tomorrow??

Okay la...I think I should stop here...Need to go back to work right now...will update if I have the mood..u all just wait la..haha

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Since when it became so complicated to me!!!!!!!!! I need a medicine/machine that can delete certain bad memories and make things start all over again.

Lesson

This month may seem to be normal for most people but NOT me. I can say that this is the longest and hardest month that I've gone through in my life. Within this month, I've learnt how to ACCEPT facts in my life. The facts that I mean here are all those incidents that can make u extremely upset and feel hopeless. It was very hard for me to accept them but I am lucky enough to have my mom and friends supporting me. When I ever thought or tried to give up, there is an 'energy' within myself pulling me back from doing so. I asked myself: Where is this 'energy' come from? And now I believe that it is due to those cares and loves from my mom and friends. Without them I may still crying in a corner without knowing what to do. From these incidents, I know that I'm not alone. Thank you for make me STRONGER. Thank you for everything! This month will eventually become very meaningful to me.

Quote of the day:

“Once you replace negative thoughts with positive ones, you'll start having positive results.” by Willie Nelson