Silent Night

Hi, it’s me blogging again in the middle of the night with all lights on. Christmas songs playing at the background just made me having the mood to blog now. Am I sounded emo? I do feel a little cause everyone seems celebrating Christmas out there and I'm AGAIN..'home alone'. A friend of mine asked me why I am not going out and I replied 'No one ask me out.' Then he asked back, 'Why don't you ask someone out?' I was like..huh..who shall I ask? At that moment I was thinking maybe I don't have as many friends as I thought. That's mainly my problem. I don't know how to maintain friendship that's why friends around me 'disappeared'. Counting the number of close friends I am having...Surprisingly, the number does not exceed the number of my fingers. Maybe I should learn from those with bunch of buddies. Learn how they actually can keep so many close friends. Ohya..most of them uses MSN and on FB all the time. Maybe this is how they keep in touch with most of their buddies. It's been quite a long time since the last time I chat on MSN. I bet if I sign in now, no one on my list will send me a message. I guess it’s time for me to make a move. I shall participate more in social-ing and I'll get back most of my friends. Maybe it’s just a matter of time.

Anyway, I wish everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS ^^

Tonight

It has been almost 2 months since my study break started..

We haven't really talk like usual.

Sometimes I am wondering what's going on...

What makes us talk less?

I never thought that distance is a problem,

and I absolutely trusted you.

But why is this happening?

I really don't know...

The way I feel is as if I am losing something.

I do admit that sometimes not talking is better

Cause sometimes talking can end up with tears.

I tried hard to mend the problem.

But it doesn't seems to work..

I hope you've tried too..

And I hope you can do it better than me.

I am thinking...

Thinking for millions of reasons for the problem.

But I couldn't find one.

Or maybe...

I wish I never find one.

Maybe...

I am thinking and wondering too much at this late night.

I hope a little bit more communication will make everything better.

Good night.

Hi

Dunno what to blog.. Just wanna say hi to everybody!